Excited for Hillbilly Easter

What can I say.......I'm excited for hilbilly Easter. I was having a hard time deciding on a menu for Sunday dinner. In speaking with a good friend, we decided that it will be a full blown down home cookin event....with a little help from our good friend Honey Baked Ham. It's the anti-christ of a Zone Easter....hallelujah! Honey Baked Ham and Turkey, Baked Beans with Bacon, Conrbread, Cheesy scalloped potatoes, Broccoli (for good measure) and Strawberry Shortcake for dessert. Oh my!

The bunny reminded me that he prefers the sprinklers to be turned off so his fancy paws don't have to get wet when he hides his magical eggs in the yard. Silly Bunny!!!! Hopefully I'll remember, it's kind of a tall order amongst the usual chaos. Not chaos bad...just everyday chaos!!!

Anyway, I'm thinking a trip to the PHS farmer's market is in order for some fresh strawberries and perhaps some glorios flowers. And...if it happens to be raining, we will splash madly in the puddles as we peruse the goods. Yes, this sounds like a fun adventure!!

Happy Easter my freinds! God is good!!

Hope

Today I am refreshingly filled with hope. It's much better then where I've been the past couple of days. I am convinced that there will always be bumps on the road to happy destiny. What is important is to find a way to not let the bump careen you off the road into a dark pit. I'm learning how to absorb the bump, how to redirect, and how to be soft and kind...loving and tolerant. These are good things.

As a quick side note (frightening confession): 4 Easter baskets from the grandparents arrived yesterday, and I am now haunted and tortured by massive amounts of sugar in the house. I ingested an entire bag of bunny shaped gooey goodness. Damn I love a good gummy bunny! By next Wednesday, all that crap has got to leave my house.....my only control is not to have it...sorry kids.....your moms a weak wussy when it comes to candy!

The Past

"We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.

We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it." The Promises

Oh, the past...the things I've said, the things I've done. The people I have hurt. The bottom line is, no matter how much I would want to, I cannot change the past, unless of coure I had a time machine, and even then, I'm not sure.

I am taking the necessary steps to be at peace with my past. But others...how can they be releived of their uncertainty, their fears as they relate to me and their experiences with me? I pray for thier acceptance and their willingness.
Today that's all I can do.

10,000 Pounds Overhead

So, I saw that Kellie's blog had listed the WOD as 10,000 pounds overhead, and my initial thought was, "April Fools!" And it never occured to me that the 4 rounds of exercise she had posted after had any relation to 10,000 pounds.

In my mind, the idea of 10,000 pounds over head is insane on the surface.

Thanks to great coaching and strategy provided by Nathan and Josh, the Wod was seriously not that bad.....actually it was great! I performed really well.

Go figure, my head says impossible, then my body proves my head wrong!

My perceptions are often off....so very off. I am grateful that I am beginning to notice this false reality that I create in my mind. Noticing just may be the first step in reshaping my view of the world, an my place within it!!

Balance

Wow, it's been a long time since I posted to my blog......Soemtimes I over think it and then don't post because I'm trying to come up with a very thought out synapsis, so from now on I am going to try to be more spontaneous.

Lately I have been struggling with balance. Sometimes my nutrition and fitness are insanely dialed in, but I'm not spending time on my relationships or the house is not as clean as it should be, or there is shopping that needs to be done. I am realizing that if I try to specialize in one event, the rest suffer. How does a girl find some balance.

A perfect day would look something like this:

Wake up and go to a meeting, pack lunches and backpacks before going

Come home to children who have been dressed and fed by their father, gather items for the day and pack bodies and items into car

Have a seemingly fluid drive across town to preschool, drop children off in their respective classrooms with no tears or tantrums. kisses, hugs and happy faces are preferable

Miracously make it to work on time...that would be 8 am sharp (rarely happens!!)

Have productive day at the office, using lunch break strategically for errands, like: bank, gas, target, trader joes, etc.

Leave the office for home, children have been picked up by husband or grandma

Arrive home and procure dinner in a fairly low stress manner and the food should be healthy and consumed by all with minimal to no whining about vegetables.

Somehow possess enough energy to get to a Corssfit class and kick $ss in my WOD, and see my friends

Make it home in time to read a story or two and have a kiss goodnight.....children are bathed and teeth are brushed

Mange to find 20 minutes of time for domestic chores so house does not look like clutters ville!

Have meaningful conversation with Jeffrey, potential adult exploits, fall over and crash hard to wake up and do it all again.

Like I said above referenced day is best case scenario and only occurs once in a blue moon. A number of variables can occur on a regaular basis that interrupt the mission....

Gotta love it when it all falls into place!!

Power Within

"May I always remember that the power within me is far greater than any fear before me. May I always have patience, for I am on the right road."


Today I hold on to this thought, and keep it close to my heart. When I saw the warmth in the sunrise, I was reminded to steer myself toward the light. Light is love, and with love all things are possible and I am free from fear.

A Quick Peek Inside My Mind

Warning!! A peek inside my mind might be scattered. I've gotten used to it. Actually I kind if like it!

Today started out with a trip to Trader Joe's for some shopping. The weekend trip to Big Bear really threw me for a loop with my diet. It was more like a cheat weekend that flowed into Thursday, filled with more carbs than I care to explain in any detail, and there was sugar and fatty goodness thrown in to boot.

Nevertheless, today I am on a mission to get back on a zonish eating plan. Zonish, because I'm just not as strict or dedicated as all you Paleo Zoners out there....I give you mad props....but I've got too much going on in my life right now to risk being edgy and irritable from diet restriction. I'm not judging anyone elses experiences form eating Paleo Zone.....I just know that when I eliminate all grains and dairy from my diet, I turn into a grouchy female dog......and my kids and a few select "others" don't need that in their life right now.

I changed up my breakfast regimen, and it was awesome. I just couldn't hack another protein oatmeal bowl, so I went for egg whites, soy bacon (A rather odd, and strangely red concoction!!), a corn tortilla and 1 tbsp of spicy humus, with a couple of shakes of Tapatio--ole!). It was heaven, oh and I threw in about a half a cup of blackberries for good measure!!

I just polished off my lunch....which rocked! About a half a cup of brown rice, half a cup of shrimp, a cup of broccoli and asparagus, and a few "flavor balls" and onions out of the Trader Joe's fire roasted balsamic vegetable frozen blend (to die for if you haven't tried it, but contains carrots for all you high glycemic veggie haters!)

Anyway.....I see a cheese stick/apple/almond snack in my future and a veggie chicken dinner.

For me, that's pretty much back on track.

I missed out on a whole week of Crossfit, which totally blows, but the Big Bear trip was awesome and totally worth it....and life has been hectic since I got back with escrow papers, and banking, and working with my sponsor....so I've been "taking care of business" and next week I'll be back in CF action. One of my co-workers said, "Jess, if you don't work out for a week, it's not going to kill you!"

Of course he is absolutely right, but when I read the Academy blog, and lots of my friends are making huge gains in their training, and I am absent, it makes me feel left out and some how not connected ( but I'm stoked for all y'all !)......I want to accomplish things alongside my friends......next week I say!!!!!

My boy has been saying some funny stuff this week.....most notably, "Are you thinkin what I'm thinkin?" Followed by...."That's silly right?" and last night there was his proclamation that he can speak Spanish followed up with, "No Problema!"

I believe I also heard him singing..."If you don't, I don't care, I'll pull down your underwear!" Oh my, how some things haven't changed since I was a kid.

And what else???? Little baby girl is really going through some willful period right now, with many temper tantrums that include kicking......it will pass. She's pretty hard core when it comes to not giving in.......wonder where she gets that from?????

The week has been amazing! I feel blessed and hopeful and loved. I feel strong in mind and in body. What more can you ask for? I'm thinking not much!!